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October 2nd, 2005
12:05 pm - Shit shitty shit shit SHIOT
Life has been shitty, of coarse. David stopped talking to me for no reason. ABSOLUTELY no reason. I got into a fight with my brother and haven't talked to him since last Monday. I'm sick as hell. It's just all very lame. It takes everything I got not to call David, especially since I already left him a message saying that I wasn't calling him anymore. It fucking sucks, man. What makes it even worse is that he did the same thing Rob did. I am oh so replacable. So now I'm back to the way it was before he was around, only I'm alot more lonely because I got used to him being there and shit. Whatever.
I went and seen Dave Chapelle the other night. It was the funniest shit ever. He was on stage for almost three hours. After he finished his stand up routine, he just sat on stool and talked about nothing. It was dope. I couldn't stop coughing, of coarse, and pissed everyone off around me.
I have to do something...
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/stars/okay.gif) blah
Current Music: Screaming Infedelities - Dashboard Confessional
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August 30th, 2005
07:31 pm - ugh
I'm so bored right now, it isn't even funny. I went over Breeding's house ealier. We went out to lunch then just hung out for a little while. Besides that, I've done absolutely nothing today. I absolutely hate boring days.
I met a boy. His name is David. He has red hair. Jealous much???
I wish I could call Larry or Ang, but alas they're at the Coldplay concert.
Someone needs to save me from the mundaneness that is my life.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/stars/sad.gif) bored
Current Music: Helena - My Chemical Romance
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August 15th, 2005
05:33 pm - I love my girls...
Last night, we had a little girls night at Angela's house in honor of Heather going back to college. It was Angela, Samantha, Devony, Breeding, Heather and I. It was alot of fun. We ordered the biggest pizza I've ever seen, and went out looking for Gyde Road. We all sat around the kitchen table just talking and drinking and having a grand time. It felt like a 6th grade slumber party. Too bad Heather had to go back to school, but she'll be back sooner or later. And I was really surprised Breeding came too, she seemed like she had alot of fun.
Well, I'll holler later...
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/stars/peaceful.gif) good
Current Music: The sound of Devony singing gay shit
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August 3rd, 2005
04:18 pm - I'm so ugly that's okay but so are you...
I haven't written in awhile so I figured now is as good a time as any. I'm living back at my moms house, due to the fact that Monica's doesn't have any power, and my mom has been lonely without Joann around. It's going alright. I been here about a week and nobody has proclaimed their hate for me as of yet. I'm sure that'll change, but for now everything is fine.
I'm really tired. Being at work where the temperature is over 95 degrees everyday wheres me out. It's so hot there, that I can't even eat. I only eat dinner, but I'm sure it's not killing me or anything. God knows I could get lost in the wilderness for days and my body would just feed off itself, lol.
Someone stold every CD I own out of car about a week and a half ago. It's very depressing. Radio sucks, and I owned every CD I've ever liked. I'm doomed to drive around forever without any Weezer, and it makes me sick.
A bunch of us are going to the bar Friday night, if you wanna go HOLLER!!!
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/stars/tired.gif) tired
Current Music: shitty radio
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July 16th, 2005
02:30 pm - I'm wearing a shirt I got in 9th grade...
...it is very old school. It's really faded brown, and I think it's for some skateboarding company, I can't remember. It has a picture of this water droplet shaped blue guy holding a really big water gun and it says wet willy. Whatever, sometimes you run out of clothes so you HAVE to dig shit out of the closet.
My mom let my sister, Abby, go with her boyfriend and his family for the night up north. I'm happy for Abigail.
Tonight is this guy, Mullet Mike's, bonfire party. I hope it doesn't rain, seeing as it's been raining all day.
I'm really cold.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/stars/cold.gif) cold
Current Music: silencio por favor
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July 6th, 2005
04:27 pm - In Response...
My sister has posted a letter to me, for the whole world to see, on her livejournal. If you'd like to read it, her screen name is canibecoolsoon. Because she has done this, and pegged it as an "internet battle", I'm going to respond to it. Also, because she has put all my business on front street, to try to make me feel bad for her, just like she's trying to do to everybody else, I'm going to put her business on front street.
*****
I only read your letter once, so I don't really remember what it said. Frankly, I'm not really concerned about it. I don't really need to know what it said. It was very, painfully obvious that you are trying so hard to be smart and intelligent. You use big words that to me, don't mean anything. You don't talk like that in real life. That wasn't Joann. That was who you want the world to see you as. You, to me, are Jo Jo. The silly, beautiful, talented sister that was also my best friend.
Everything you say is so two sided, Jo Jo. Do you know that? You say all this intellectual crap, but deep down, you HAVE to know how screwed up this is. You have to. I can't believe that you would think that moving into an apartment with girls who are just as young and even more naive than you are is a good thing. I can't believe that you would think moving out is such a great idea, when you don't even have a car right now. I can't believe that you would walk away from getting to live at Eastern and have a normal college experience.
I'm sorry Jo Jo, but you are not grown. I'm 21 years old, and I am not grown. I need my mother more than anything in the world, and I haven't depended on her for monetary purposes in years. I need her because she is my mother. I need her because she has done SO much for me that it makes me feel like shit in the scheme of things. I need her because I know she needs me too, just like she needs you. She NEEDS us to be happy. I NEED her to be happy.
I am not all that upset by the fact that you think a 27 year old man is your "boo". I'm not all that upset that you planned on lying to my mom and going down south to see him during the summer. I'm not even all that upset that you've been a lying SNAKE for the past three years. I'm upset because you have hurt my mother. She is, quiet possibly, the bravest, most compassionate and caring person I will ever know in my life. She has gone through SO MUCH SHIT, even before you or I were even born. Knowing everything, how could you stand there and say the things that you said to her that day? I'm not even going to say what they are, because I do care about you and I don't want you to look like a monster. You said some of the most awful, hurtful things I've ever heard anyone say to another person. When I came home that day, and mom told me what you said, I contemplated going out to look for you. I wanted to kick your ass. I wanted to spit on you. That's why I left you that phone message. For a week after everything came out, I didn't sleep. I cried just thinking about it. I felt like my best friend was dead, which in a way, is true.
Anyway, I'm over this whole situation. No one has stopped loving you. Because we are so hurt, that should be proof enough that we love you more than you will ever know. My heart aches, Jo Jo, as I'm sure yours does. And your family has not abandoned you. You left us. I just can't comprehend why you would leave five people that you've known for your whole life, who have supported you and loved you forever, for a gross, greasy, NOT EVEN ATTRACTIVE tool. You're better than that. You're better than him. You know it. I know it. You're too good for MOST of guys that are alive. JR is not right, Jo Jo. Being 21, I know that it isn't right to date a 14 year old. I would never do it. He was 24. You think that's okay?
I love you. Any further correspondants you want to share with me will have to be through email, because I don't think we need anymore of our families business out in the world like this.
Peace out, bitches
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July 3rd, 2005
12:17 pm - HAPPY BIRTHDAY LARRY
Today is Larry's birthday. Yay for Larry being 21...FINALLY. Yesterday, Neisha threw him a surprise barbeque/party thing. I helped. It was fun. I was so worried that Larry would show up and everyone wouldn't be there, but it turned out to be great. Sarah got very drunk, so that's ALWAYS fun. Monica and Mike acted like prudes and got all offended by how "close" all of us are. I tried to explain to them that when you have a group of people like us, who have all known each other for 10 years and grew up together, nothing matters and it's all in fun. They definatly didn't understand. And the worst part was that Monica tried to make me feel bad about all of us being friends. She was all like, "Mike, Mario (sarah's hubby) and I all felt left out and out of place". Whatever. It ended up being Neisha, Me, Larry, Rickey A, Angela, Sarah and Mario, Monica and Mike, Timothy, Nicole V, JoeGoroni, Lonnie (who wasn't really invited by me or neisha), some kid (who also wasn't invited by me or neisha), Sarah Gray and Brucie. Then, after everybody left, Larry, Rickey, Ang, Neisha, Sarah and I went to Sarah and Mario's. Monica and Mike showed up later. And that's when Monica and Mike insisted that they were left out and things went too far. WHATEVER. We like to rock out with our cocks out.
Tonight, we're all going to McNasty's because that's where Larry wants to go.
One of the ugliest girls I've ever seen is on the Real World. She has a Jay Leno chin. Yuck.
I'll leave with this...never let people control you, your FAMILY is the only thing that will love you regardless.
Fuck you very much :)
Current Mood: okay
Current Music: The Real World - Austin, TX
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May 29th, 2005
06:59 pm - SARAH BREEDING IS NOW SARAH MUNIZ!!!!!!!!!
Sarah's wedding was Friday and it was fun. At first it wasn't fun, because before the ceremony I almost puked like, 3 different times. Watching Sarah walk down the isle made me cry. She looked so pretty, and I'm so happy for her. After the wedding we took a million pictures. The man that I had to walk with, Neil, was very helpful, and funny as shit too. As soon as we all got into the reception, he got a PITCHER of long island iced tea. By the time it was time for us to dance, I was already drunk. Kevin was there, and he was oh, so hot. Sarah's mom got wasted. One of my toes is still numb from wearing the crazy shoes all day.
I can't remember if I already mentioned this, but come September Sarah and Mario might (more than likely) move to Tennessee. That makes me very sad. I don't want her to leave. I always pictured our kids growing up together and us living like, real close by. I always thought my little Ava Jane would have an Aunt Sarah and Uncle Mario. I don't want to be left here to rot. Now I'm crying. It's hard being a bitch, man. I just wish that she didn't feel like in order to start her married life, she has to move away. I've known this girl since I was nine. Tennesse already ate my other best friend, please don't let it take this one too.
How come everytime I get upset I feel like throwing up?
Current Mood: bummed
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May 21st, 2005
05:18 pm
Man, I am so bored. Sarah might be moving to Tennesse come September. I'm not very happy about that. Last night was their (Sarah and Mario) bachelor/bachelorette party. It was...okay. Kevin showed up in a t-shirt with the sleeves cut off and I lost my mojo for some reason. I danced outside by Fort St. and people honked at me. That was kinda childish, blame it on the vodka. Today, I've been sitting around since I woke up at 9 am, waiting to go to this thing that my moms doing. I know it sounds kinda vague, but I don't know how else to explain it. She's playing her guitar at this church thing. I'm really tired. I feel like I'm being drove crazy.
All these problems
On my mind
Make it hard
For me to think
There is no way
I can stop
My poor brain
Is gonna pop
And I don't have a purpose
Scattered on the surface
I need to find some peace
Current Mood: sleepy
Current Music: Peace - Weezer
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May 15th, 2005
03:33 pm - Crazy bitch
I got to cuss out the 30 year old crazy bitch that is stalking my brother today. It was awesome, you shoulda been there. She called, and I didn't even say hello, I just screamed into the phone "GROW UP, GROW UP, GROW UP!!!". Then she called again, and i picked up the phone and said, "Seriously, it's getting old. Get a life". Then she called again, and by that time I had had it. I pick up the phone and scream, "YOU ARE THIRTY YEARS OLD, YOU WILL NEVER SPEAK TO MY BROTHER AGAIN, STOP CALLING HERE YOU FUCKING STALKER!" It was beautiful. I'm telling you, you missed out. The whole time my brother was just looking at me like, "I can't believe you're doing this." I swear, that bitch better pray that I don't find out where she lives, because she will get the ass beating of a lifetime. The worst part is...SHE'S A GROWN WOMAN!!! Whatever...
Current Music: Weezer
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May 11th, 2005
02:23 pm - This is such a pity, we should give all our love to each other
Now that I am not so upset about boo kitty, I suppose I can post something of content. The Weezer show was...okay. I feel bad for not saying it was awesome or anything, but I'm not gonna say it was the coolest thing I'd ever seen when it so was not. The band played well and all, but what is up with Rivers Cuomo? He stood in front the the microphone the whole time, with his head down, showing no emotion at all. Maybe it wouldn't have been so bad if I'd have been on the floor. The balcony was awful. Everyone, with the exception of Joann, Larry and me, just stood there. I don't even think anyone knew the words. It was just weird how Weezer has this cult following, and they hadn't played a show in three years. You'd think people would be more excited. I thought Rivers would be more excited. Anyway, their new CD came out yesterday and it's good, so I guess that's all I can ask for.
Kevin might be moving to Tennessee after Sarah and Mario's wedding. It kinda sucks, but it's not like I'm attached to him or anything. He's just my experiment to see what would happen if for once I was the one that didn't care. It's going well, thanks for asking.
Why did I ever think the show Step by Step was a good show? It's awful.
I hope Jo Jo will work for me tonight. My stomach hurts, man...
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/stars/blank.gif) blank
Current Music: Make Believe - WEEZERS NEW CD!!!
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May 3rd, 2005
06:07 pm - awww...
Bella Bunny Boo Boo Kitty has died today after a weekend of being sick. I love my Boo Bunny, so it's very sad.
RIP BELLA!
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April 28th, 2005
06:26 pm - I've got a wonderful feeling, everythings going my way
Hey. I've decided that I'm going to move in with Monica. She asked me if I wanted to for 200 dollars a month, and I have to say, that is too good to pass up. I'll get my own room, plus, she works an opposite schedule as me so we won't get sick of each other quickly. Sweet.
I'm so excited about the Weezer show May 5th. You have no idea. I seen them once before at Pine Knob, and let me tell you...it was awesome. You should be jealous of me.
I haven't seen or really talked to Kevin in about a week. Oh well, not my fault. I don't have time for stuff like that. My feelings have been hurt too much in the past to let dumb crap get to me. If things go the way I want them to, good...if not, whatever.
I gotta call Bills...she definatly called me Saturday and my sucky ass never even called her back. I suck.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/stars/happy.gif) chipper
Current Music: "Oh" - Ciara
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April 18th, 2005
10:57 pm - I'm no ones priority, just their option
I hate that I'm like, hungry all the time, but still a fat ass. It really bothers me. And I hate that my car is having all these lame problems after only owning it for a month, but the dealership says it isn't their problem. I would also like to know why they have to keep my car overnight to fix the horn. I also hate that nobody ever calls me. I bet that if I didn't call anyone, no one would even check up on me to see if I'm still alive. I'm kinda bummed, man. I feel like nothing ever goes the way I want it to. I mean, I know that nothing is ever good all the time, but shouldn't some stuff be good sometimes? I just feel like everybodies having fun, and I'm not. And why does my brother always make me watch basketball? I feel like I should like the sport, since I watch it all the time. I also hate that everytime I cough, someone says, "Heh, that's why you should quit smoking". Hasn't anyone ever heard of the common cold? Am I not allowed to be ill because I smoke cigarettes? There must be some kind of law that I don't know about. Know the saying good things happen to good people? I don't think that's true. I'm a good person, and nothing good really happens to me that much. Maybe my perception of being a "good person" is off. I don't know. If that's the case, then how come stuck up bitches who treat people like shit get to be beautiful and famous? I also wanna know why 89X insists on playing the same 11 songs all day. I know they have more music than that. And just so you know, I don't care if you think that I'm just complaining, because I am just complaining. I'm allowed to do that. There isn't any kind of law that says no ones allowed to bitch about life. Unless it's written in the same book as the one where you can't be sick if you smoke. Hmmm...
**Big up to Leah for being the only one that reads this!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Current Mood: bored
Current Music: I guess none
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April 13th, 2005
02:01 pm - It's been awhile, but I can still remember just the way you taste
I haven't written in a while, but that's okay. Nobody reads this anyway. Today, I go back to work after a GLORIOUS week vacation. I'm so bummed. The worst part is, my first day back and I have to work the night shift. Ugh. That's so disgusting. Hopefully, it'll be okay.
Kevin and I are talking again. He broke up with his girlfriend. I win, ha ha ha.
You would think that I would have more to say, seeing as I haven't written in so long. But alas, I don't. I'm sorry.
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: My bird SCREAMING
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April 5th, 2005
04:38 pm - Ugh
I saw two really really gross things today on my way home from work. One was a garbage truck that stunk like butt and was like, leaking water out of the back of it (I'm guessing it was rotten milk or something). The other was April Koromos walking across the street in tight ass blue jeans and an even tighter red camisole type deal. YUCK!
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March 27th, 2005
06:16 pm - I hate fakes
I've been doing okay. I've been better, you know? I've been hanging out with Breeding alot lately, because FINALLY someone is 21. Last night we went up to some veterans hall/bar to watch her fiance's dad's band play. They were really good. More like a band you'd hire to play at your wedding, but still good. I drank a little, but not too much. It was okay.
I went on a date with that one guy that comes into my work, William Wallen. I got too drunk that night, but oh well. He wouldn't let me give him any money for the 50 dollars worth of vodka and coke I drank either. Whatever. I suppose I'll hang out with him again, although he is painfully older than me and it's very obvious. I can't wait till I have all my shit worked out and I'm painfully older than someone.
I feel very alone lately, but I guess I'll survive.
Current Mood: down
Current Music: Unhinged - Helmet
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March 20th, 2005
05:29 am - Oh whata night
I had a good night last night. I had to work, but afterwards I went to the bar with Breeding and her people. Kevin was there, which was...fun (ha). I didn't go to sleep at all so now I'm like, fucking exhausted. I think I'll go to bed.
Current Mood: tired
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March 19th, 2005
11:36 am - I rather see you dead
Bah, nothings been going on. I was supposed to go on a "date" last night with that old guy that comes into my work. Well, he's not OLD, but he's 29 and I kinda think he might be lying about that. I didn't want to be stuck with him all night, so when he called I told him I had something to do at 10pm. Instead of saying, "okay, that's cool" he said, "okay, we can just go out another night so we don't have to be rushed or anything". What the fuck does that mean? Rushed. It was six o'fucking clock. Whatever. So, looks like I've used the only excuse I could think of so now I'm screwed and will probably go out with him sometime this week.
I haven't talked to that Kevin kid, but Sarah and Mario keeps saying that he thinks I'm "hot". Okay. If I'm so hot he should call me.
Last night I went over Bruce's because he's lived in his apartment for like, a month and I still hadn't seen it. Robbie Rhinehart was there, and so was Lamont Turner and whoever his girlfriend is. It was okay. But then after Lamont left, and Bruce got all drunk and shit, he left the room and went to his fucking bedroom and went to bed. And didn't even say shit! Ain't that JUST LIKE HIM. So, I had to get the fuck outta there because I don't like to be alone with Robbie.
Anyway, that's all I have. Except for the fact that I HATE lemmings. Whatever.
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/stars/awake.gif) awake
Current Music: Addicted - Kelly Clarkston
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March 12th, 2005
11:34 am - Yay for friends turning 21...
I bought a car on Monday. Yes, I know, very exciting. It's a silver 2002 Dodge Neon. I am the shit. I went to the bar last night with Breeding and Mario for Sarah's birthday. It was fun. We drank and shit, and then played pool (and I have to add that I am AWFUL). I'm so glad Sarah's 21 now. I finally have someone to go out with, even though Monica's 21 but she don't ever wanna go out. Anyway, I kinda got to know Mario's friend, Kevin, last night and he's really cool. We exchanged numbers and everything so that's nice.
How come whenever I drink, the next day my fingertips are like, tingly and weird? I'm not even hung-over or anything, I don't get it.
I'm so over reality shows, except Real World.
Yay for JoJo, even thought the girl at the Grind was a douche.
Current Mood: mellow
Current Music: Real World...the show
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